Mouth

The mouth is a powerful weapon. Watch it. If not you get it man.

me

GOD IS GREAT! :) This morning's prayer was wonderful. I could feel God so real man. I love God so much. He loves me even though i am so kuku. Don't worry all things are possible if you love God. He will provide with the rest. I seriously can't wait for tomorrow's quiet time again with God. It's really very amazing. TRY IT :)

Working at church office is really fun. I did a couple of stuff and some stuff i didn't do but hey. It's fun isn't it. Oh nooooo but cell's on tomorrow. Haha scared.. Never practise guitar for a while now because my guitar is spoilt. But trust God. weeeeeeeeeeeee!

I don't want to lose this feeling.
never.
it has always been about me.
No one else.
All this have to stop.

reachhhhhhh outttttttt

Haha oaky <<<< Okay* so this morning we had prayer group, only 6 turned up. It was quite cool. We are starting to plan a new outreach plan and from the way it looks, it looks good man. I think we can save a lot of souls. BUT a lot of work needs to be done but still it is worth it. Everyone please pray that the outreach would be a blast man. It's super nice.

I think tonight wee and i will be staying over at Gavin's place then we can go to work together tomorrow at church office. weeeeeeeeeee. We'll be playing songs on the guitar and singing and singing. We did so on monday but i wasn't really in the mood then so my voice was kuku and so was my playing. But TONIGHT will be different i am so in the mood to sing and play.

Haha can't you tell that i am happy. Well i told you all that if you have any problems, turn them to Jesus right? Yup i did it and that's why i am happy now. There's nothing too big to solve! :) If you're happy, i'm happy! :) If you can't smile? Let me know because....

Smile now :)

Retarded but meaningful

Good friends will always be Good Friends.

Whatever happens or whatever you are. We will be side by side.

love song mood in the morning

Baby won’t you tell me why there is sadness in your eyes

I don’t wanna say goodbye to you

Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

But there is something left in my head

You’re the one who set it up now you’re the one to make it stop

I’m the one who’s feeling lost right now

Now you want me to forget every little thing you said

But there is something left in my head

I won’t forget the way you’re kissing

The feeling’s so strong were lasting for so long

But I’m not the man your heart is missing

That’s why you go away I know

You were never satisfied no matter how I tried

Now you wanna say goodbye to me

Love is one big illusion I should try to forget

But there is something left in my head

Sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere

Don’t know which way to go

There ain’t so much to say now between us

There ain’t so much for you

There ain’t so much for me anymore

Haha nice lyrics? Can't beat Cry on my Shoulder. The most touching and meaningful song. Except the verse after the chorus. Makes me laugh.

monday night

Action produces Consequences. Yes. And there's nothing i can do about it.

Okay i did talk to gavin and wee leong. It went pretty well. Can't say that i'm feeling much better now but hey slowly i will feel better. My mood wasn't exactly the best today. But don't worry i won't cry i think. We played some stupid games together and it really cheered me up. Gavin's special games.

I am sitting here in my chair and my head's killing me i got a bad headache now. I feel like i am floating. I feel very bad now. My head is really floating and as i am typing this.. so many things are running through my head it's not funny.

Okay anyways i am cool. Just gotta have some rest and hopefully tomorrow will be a better day :)

For those who still have school enjoy it! Don't get too stressed up with school work. Yes and
Keep smiling :) Yes smile not otherwise.

holiday begins..

okay so wee bro, gavin, and haoge stayed over. We played a few games then went to bed. This was one stay over without much talking. Usually we would talk about stuff before we slept. But i didn't start it and neither did the guys. Haha. Don't ask me why. I guess i was really tired and wasn't really in the mood. We woke up today at like 9 plus. Junhao woke up at 4.

We played a bit of basketball in the morning. Quite fun. :) Here i am waiting for Gavin to finish bathing so i can go over to his house for a bit before meeting wee leong or dinner and talk session. I hope i will talk to Gavin later on the way to his place as well as at his house.

People out there if you have anything bothering you, talking to your buddy would be a wonderful thing. However stupid it might be just talk to that one person that you're close to.

I'm sorry my post is not really making sense but hey! AT LEAST i am still posting. Haha.

However difficult things maybe, it is not difficult for God amen? Though human -ly wise it's hard to control one's emotions and thoughts. For me thoughts are the biggest thing that can kill me. I think a lot and when i think.... it's no joke haha. But then again God made me this way. No matter what happens just praise God and everything will be fine.

Things might not go the way you want it to but certain things must be done for the greater sake of everyone. So yup :)

Take care now.

sunday

today wasn't really the best day, church was fantastic but the rest of the day wasn't that good. Tall was good. The speaker is a great prophet and he can interpret tongues. After which we went to watch jumper. Jumper's cool. I wish i could be a jumper and jump away. Just jump away and away.

I decided to think through about my life. It's just me really. However hard i might think i can, i still fail sometimes. I thought i could do it. I really can't. I don't feel like doing anything. Now my thoughts are coming in again to kill me. I don't understand why.

but i believe that God can help me. God is great amen.? :) Humans are weak.

bye.

youth service

andrew yeo came to preach today. His message was SUPER funny and SUPER meaningful. He joked a lot and poked fun in the beginning of this sermon but in the later half of his sermon, he really shared his testimony about reaching out to the people that God called him to. His main point was that "A little kindness can change the world for Jesus".

I guess that's true, you don't have to preach. Just be nice to people around you and they will see that you're different and nice and talk to you. When they do, tell them it's because of God's love and slowly they will come to know the lord. Keep it up Culture Youth. Keep bringing friends. We got like quite a fair bit of people but we can bring more amen?

Just have the heart for the lost and unloved. The rejects. Don't choose who you want to bring. Just bring anyone. I am sure there are rejects in your school that you know and that you can invite them but you are CHOOSING who you want to bring. Don't choose. Bring. It's hard i am trying my best too :)

Good nights :) See you tomorrow :)

last paper weeeeeee!

okay so today was my last exam paper. Quite alright i guess. Some questions i know how to do them while others... i guessed :) Haha after exam i went for the teamers meeting. Meeting was awesome! We chatted and things like that. We went for corporate prayer afterwards too. Praying was awesome!

Luke Chyi wei and i decided to take a cab home after prayer meeting but there was no sign of any cabs at all. Then God decided to help us. Timmy called us and said that Pastor Jimmy could give us a lift and that he was just waiting at the bus stop! WEEEEEE! We got home early. The ride home was wondeful, we chatted and played haha. Okay so now i am like going to sleep soon man. Hope to see you all tomorrow. Cell's going to be fun amen? See you tomorrow.

OH YAH i will change my blog skin to something else la. I will change a nicer one! HAHA.....

okay i am so retarded

haha. i have my last test tomorrow. But i am not studying now. I studied 3/4 last week already. So later tonight i will revise and tomorrow i will revise in the morning before the test :D For now i will just relax.

Anyways, i am not sure why but somehow there's a lot of emotions going through me man. My tests, taking my walk with God to the next level and friends stuff. These things are just going through my head. A lot to do but i can do it if i rely on God amen? :)

Haha friends friends. Things are happening to the people around me that i cannot do anything about. I hope when i see you guys at cell, you would give me the chance to talk to you and to help you. We all really love you. Please know that! Hang out with us more and you'll grow, not get depressed really. I know how you feel remember i told you i felt like that before? Let me help :)And you! Please let me know what's going on in your life man. I am always here for you dude. Please continue devotions and not lack and dream about other things.

and YOU! Hope to you soon :) Yes you!

Haha i am not naming names. If you feel something when you're reading this yes it's you :)

Here a little something for you :

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

second paper day

Okay. This morning i woke up and studied a bit then headed down to school to OUR SPACE, a place for students to study, to find wee bro and joshua kwan. We studied there for a bit before going for lunch and then for our paper :) Haha while we were there, we practised lip reading :) It's fun to talk to each other using our lips. Especially to Ginny who was an expert :) Haha we will master the wonderful art man :)

The paper was alright i guess. I finished it in about 1 hour 10 minutes. After which i went over to JUNHAO's house to watch some oldies singer dude sing and played x box for a bit before heading down to town to get luke brother his present. 4 of us shared your present luke. You better love it. :) Not telling you what i bought in case you do read this blog. HAHA.

So junhao and i went home from town after dinner and gelare. We were on the bus and we saw buddy Laura. Haha who went to watch a movie with her friends. We chatted for a bit....

.... so here i am getting ready to sleep. Tomorrow's a free day. It's your birthday Luke. Grow strong in God :) I hope i can pass you the gift tomorrow if not a bit sad.... to pass it to you belated. Hope to see you tomorrow :) Happy birthday brother!

- Whatever decisions that God makes for you is for you. Where he places you, what he wants you to do, it's all his plan. So go where God leads and touch the world :) Yup. You know what i mean ;) (F)

1 paper down.. 2 more to go! #$%@$#%@$#%@#

backkkkkkkk from the first paper. Okay didn't really go THAT smooth, i finished the paper in 35 minutes. I didn't know how to do one part :( Well. I am not sure if i can do well! We'll see when it comes back :)

Haha i am lazy to start studying for the paper tomorrow. HOW! But guess what i must do it. :) Must try to be excellent. I guess i will study in a while. I will just relax..... for a bit....

Anyways. wee bro and i were talking about some stuff that we should plan for the coming march holidays! For who? Our lovely zone people :D Haha yes we will plan something together. Don't worry if it's planned by us should be fun. Haha.

On the way home i was just thinking about some people and stuff and i got reminded of "tissue paper". Haha what about it? I always believe that all girls carry tissue paper except for some stubborn ones.. HAHA. Some are making the effort to bring! Like you. I appreciate it. Okay no meaning but decided to post anyway.

tired tired

Hello, my first paper is tomorrow. The title of that module is called Developing Web Applications. Fun right? Haha. Okay so let me start from this morning..

I woke up at like 7 then went back to sleep again until my mom woke me up at 7.24am. I showered and headed down to the busstop to meet with Chyi Wei and Clarence. As usual i am the earliest. Haha. I saw Josh there though. He was waiting for the Hokkaido Boys. So we took the bus and wee bro boarded the bus a few stops after.

Why did we go so early? To help Clarence and Alloy prepare verses for their wonderful outreach plan! Haha Yup! And it was good. Timothy was there too. So yea that was my morning.

Service was wonderful. Talked about stretching out our hands to people. In other words, to reach out, the area where we are all not so good at :( One thing that Pastor Rob said was that in the whole bible, the word "Invitation" is not in it. What he meant was that by right we are supposed to "Bring" people to church not "Invite" them to church. It's a command not an invitation. Yea. Wonderful.

After service we had the wonderful prayer group meetings. As usual, 3 cheers for all prayer group leaders :) Especially Mark and Laura who just started theirs! Okay, i bought subway and ate it on the way home. Went home with Clarence, Luke, Josh and Lye Junhao. xD

Here i am bored. Must study but feeling very tired. I woke up at 6.30pm after a one hour powernap and i must thank my guy and girl buddy for waking me up if not i sure sleep till morning :)

Amazingly long post today but yea gotta study and please pray for all poly kids for their exams to be over! THANK YOU.

Oh yea before i forget, I went home.. saw my sister and i said. "Come with me to church." Haha i didnt invite i asked her to come. She was stunned and she said okay. Hopefully she comes.

Caaaaaameeeeeeee

rrrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Yes Camera!

My mother bought this camera! Haha cool right! Yay! Now i can take more pictures at like fun fun events that we will have this year ! Hopefully nicer pictures of myself xD!

Okay okay. Today i woke up at like 12 and started to study. As i was studying halfway, the internet started to lag real bad. So i couldn't study, i hate to go to school to buy the book. THANKFULLY, Vina offered to pass me her book since she have already studied. So thank you. Anyway i already treated her to a drink. lol. I studied with weeeeeee bro till about 8. Our original plan was to study till 10! But failed cuz wee bro was tired!

Haha so i am at home now blogging.. then i will bathe.. relax for a bit then back to revision. I had a great day today. Yes with you of course :) Valentines day...... haha another normal day.

prayer group > unexpected outreach

this morning wee lee came over. We played a few songs on the guitar before going out for a jog. Afte the jog, we went to school for prayer group. Prayer group was fun. There were only like 6 of us. I really enjoy it. Somehow i prefer a small praying group. But still let's grow won't we :)

I didn't really study much today. I think i must study tonight. I got a lot to study and i would really need your prayers people. Haha tomorrow's valentines day. A fun and loving day to spend with your loved ones.. Hmm yes you. A flower for you (F) Haha visualise it.

A time for friends to share love for one another but there's exams so we'll share love another day i promise :) Okay i am waiting for dinner to come home... where are you my dinner. i love you so.. please fill me up so i can grow! Haha.. Act like rhyme.

Okay see you tomorrow blog..

start of study break

Okay.. so today was the first day of studying for the exams.. Not bad i guess i played game, bass, guitar and studied. I did quite a fair bit. Then later in the evening some of the buddies came over for dinner cuz my mother invited them. Fun Fun. Junhao sang.. Lol... But it was good. Haha. Now i am lazy to continue studying. Gonna wait a while and maybe go to bed then tomorrow continue studying before cell starts. I am not sure as to what to share. I will pray about what to share. Oh yea, i have to bring my bass to office to test to see if it's my guitar or my amp. Haha. Heavy but no choice. For the sake of the pretty bass.

Hello world. Chinese New Year was fun. Went around visiting and yep of course collected ang pao.. Haha how much? Don't tell you. Church was good. Pastor Francis talked about the holy spirit and the word being one. The testimony was wonderful by our wonderful Elaine's mum.
Pray for the exam to be over please! :)

joss sticks

yup.. joss sticks. Today after my short morning class i went to PS to meet wee bro and lye weak hao.. We followed wee bro to do some last minute shopping. Not much :)

After which i went to grandma house. On the way to my grandma's house, i suddenly had this thought that my grandfather would ask us to offer joss sticks to my great grandmother. I was sort of scared so i prayed to God saying that if i really had to offer the joss sticks i would do it.
I would not honor the act but rather i would do it just not to make trouble in my family and i prayed to God for forgiveness although i didn't do it with the intention but i still did the act.

GUESS WHAT! My grandfather did ask me to offer .. i decided to say wait. Then hours passed... and he forgot about it and here i am at home :) HAHA GOD ROCKS!

bass rocks my socks

today i went to school for 2 hours then i went to meet junhaooo for a fun time at jurong :) Then i went for cell ! :) Cell was awesome. It's not about the numbers but it's really about the vision of seeing it grow and building the kids up in their spiritual life. I am not saying that mine is perfect but yea! I have my leaders to help me up and currently i am doing good :)

I came home and immediately try my bass again. IT WORKS :) I did some crazy stuff on my bass guitar and my hand went cramp! Haha wooo hooooo the wonders of what i can do with my bass.. will be a secret until further notice :) HAHA. Practise....

sunday.. the day of rest.

Okay so i woke up early and went to church today. Church was cool. Talking about sowing the seeds in lifes of our family and relatives. I have been talking to my family members about Christ but they still believe that it's an individual belief. But Christianity is not a religion, it's a relationship.
After church i went to buy my new bass amp as you can see! Haha then i rush home because i have to study for a test tomorrow. :)

Been thinking about alot of stuff about this year. New year, new roles, new responsibilities. I want to really serve God this year. I pray that God will give me the strength right now. I really am thankful for certain people in my life helping me whenever i have problems or thoughts in my head. You know who you are. We have to watch our relationships with people because it's very important. It's true that you can get close to certain people and some you can't but still treasure those that you are close with. For they are the people preventing you from falling away from God but instead getting closer to God.

Okay tomorrow's my test. Pray :)


Sorry if the Cry on my shoulder song lyrics made anyone of you emo or sad. :) Wasn't my intention. Stay smiling :)

fun friday

Okay so i have been reading more of the bible, hopefully i get to read the whole bible so as to be able to use God's word for every good work:) Haha i am building myself up spiritually however there are still times when i get tempted by the devil :( But it's okay i know that God forgives me everytime if i seriously confess to him.

Today i went for blood donation with yan wen and vina. This was my first time and i was kinda of scared because i didn't know if my body could take it. My mother would never allow me to do it because she thinks that my body is weak and that i can't even take care of it still want to act like donate blood. So....... i did it without telling her. It is wrong i am sorry! But i can save lives just by donating that amount of blood.

For cell, we went to church office to wrap oranges for Chinese New Year. After cell we took the 176 bus home again. I really love going home together with my 176 buddies. We joke, poke and disturb each other haha. Oh yea we would have talks from time to time as well. Sometimes i wonder what i would do without Culture. A place where there's fun, a place to grow spiritually, a place almost like family. I thank God for you guys. Really you have given my life more joy and meaning since the day i came in and joined in the journey to knowing God.

Ben loves Culture :)